BAD MACHINATION

I am just sitting in my guild hall in Guild Wars starring at our fountain. GW is still one of my favorite ways to "feel connected". I have been playing it for four or five years now, so that probably adds and element of comfort. It is a good place to go when I just don't know what to do with myself or want to escape or something. I have also been listening to Nine Inch Nails. I was nearly obsessed as a teenager, but as I grew up and their sound changed, I stopped listening to them. It is kind of nice, in a way, to listen to this songs again. For some reason I have been very nostalgic lately. I think it is because I sort of wasted my youth. I think about this time and again. That time, when you have real responsibility isn't a bad time to cement friendships and things like that. Yeah, you have to deal with a lot of douchebags, but there are some good folks out there, or folks that become good. I really think I should have tried harder to overcome my natural shyness. When I was young, I imagined myself as a 20something. What my friends and life would be like, and I made a few vows to fulfill X wish by age 26. Seemed like a sensibly ripe and mature age, and now I'm nearly there, and what I wanted to do remains unfulfilled. Most of all I wanted about a dozen real good friends [IRL]. It seemed like a good number. I also imagined a few of them as being sexy goth girls. Guess what my perogatives were like at age 15, or 16.

So far I have about two good friends, one prospective

I am pleased with my online friends. They are some of the best I have, but the lack of "realness" I could stand to change. Naturally, I doubt I will assemble the imaginary crew, but I certainly need to work harder at it.

I am actually kind of lonely a lot of the time. My naturally disinclination to be social, and my lack of patience with most others, and high standards in who I consider my peers all tend to stand in the way. I really need to pick up the pace, because so far, I am pretty much a loser. No job, failed college once (incidentally, a large part of it may have been Guild Wars) kind of awkward. I don't know. It's not necessarily pleasant to articulate.

I have a question though, for anyone who might know better;
How do you meet people? how do you be friends?

It's not something I really know how to do.

This is only about half of what I wanted to say, but I don't know how to construct the remaining words. I suppose I will just enjoy the cat on my lap, and get back to playing Guild Wars.

Peace out, all.


P.S if any of you also still play Guild Wars, let me know. :)

Another desktop meme. Seems I can't resist these things.

Nothing much to say though. The last couple days I have been hanging out at a friend's pretty much constantly. He got Assassin's Creed II which is okay to watch, but he plays it too slow paced for my taste (my style is to fling myself around trying my damnedest to nigh-die, until I find guards, then I start the biggest fights I can), so I have been watching that, or playing Guild Wars. Speaking of things I can't resist.

The last few days I have just been putzing around doing stuff that would make no sense to anyone who doesn't already know what I mean, pushing my Dervish through GW: Eye Of The North, and also collecting materials and money for awesome furry armor for him.

Little did I know, the particular armor I chose (Norn, for anyone in the know) looks like a furry strapless dress in the absence of it's hood which I could not afford at the time.

My poor derv looks bishy enough as it is. With the armor, he looks like he needs to go find a drag show.

Win.


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Now for another equally less important thing:


MEME:

→ Take a screenshot of your desktop.
→ Take a screenshot your media player (if you have one up).
→ Take a screenshot of another program you have up.
→ Pick a tab you have up and take a screenshot of it.
→ YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO CHANGE ANYTHING BEFORE TAKING A SCREENSHOT OF IT.


( memes are retarded. you're retarded, BMACH )

I would have some sprawling labyrinthine amalgamation above and below ground. It would be a senseless jumble of different ideas of dream houses to suit whatever whim I was on at the time.
The only thing I know for certain, is that it would have a giant library den half in a hill, with a huge ornate window in the wall facing outside of the hill. The interior would be kind of old world with a lot of dark wood and such.

Probably adjacent I would have a utilitarian room with racks of computers networked into a cluster. I have always wanted one of those, even though I didn't really need the computing power. If I had it though, I bet I would find a use.

Would using it as startup for a charitable organization count?

I would motion the nearest person really close, and croak out with exaggerated difficulty:

There... is.... another.... Sky..wa-lker

If I can go out with one last joke, why not?

At least that will have to do until I'm all wise and stuff.

super healing. like wolverine style. the kind that gives an almost-immortality.

how else will i find the time to do and see all that i wish?

In a way that you will totally find marketable, Life Scoop.

( It's dope being wise. Act III Scene 2, by Saul )

The aggression at the status quo exhibited in that is utterly intoxicating. Scope it out, sometime. Ought to be on youtube.

When I first saw this on the repositories, I said something like "AisleRiot? wtf? who needs 80 different solitaire games!?"

I now realize that it was me.

A. Promiscuity
B. Criminal Behavior
C. Taking to the high seas, to violate maritime law.

Helplessness or otherwise lacking the capacity to direct myself and [to a lesser extent] what's going on around me.
Nope. I don't even know how to address something so big.

In addition to bad action star. Ace.

He's also a singer, songwriter, action movie producer, writer, director, founder of Seagal Enterprises, which markets an energy drink, a line of herbal oils, a steven seagal aftershave, and an imprint of Kershaw Knives, and is, according to Lama Penor Rinpoche, a reincarnated tulku (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tulku) of Chungdrag Dorje (http://www.palyul.org/docs/statement.html).

Clearly the man even breathes awesome.

Had a late start today. Lazed around until about 1. Then I took a look around downtown. First order of business I checked some stores. I should have checked more I was planning to check a few "on the way back" but ended up coming back a different way. I also scouted a smoothie place I want to try but also didn't for that very same reason. I snapped a shot of some graffiti by chance, and that established a motif for the day. I discovered a raised walkway went up to a park space on top of a tunnel actually, with trees and bushes all over. Surprised the hell out of me. It looked more like the woods than a garden. Saw raised view of the lake on that same pavilion. Wow. Then I walked down onto the shore, explored old bits of junk and jumbles of large to huge granite boulders, very slowly going back and fourth I worked my way up to a canal, and a little Army Corp Of Engineers visitor center I meant to scope out but didn't. Saw the old lighthouse at the area, and a new one. Watched ships, walked some more, took some pictures of the mills and factories on the waterfront. Icky that they are there, but I still love the functional weirdness of industrial architecture. Scoped out the aerial lift bridge that seems to be some kind of architectural mascot of the place. There was a ton of graffiti on the lighthouses. From out on the pier I spotted what appeared to be a sandy beach. Surprised the hell out of me, so I checked it out. I ended up hopping over a wall, and much to my delight there was a few big colorful displays of graffiti, including a bit I liked so much it will be a new icon. Mark my words. I wandered for awhile, picked a landmark and made myself turn back once I reached it. SHIT I just realized there was a docked Coastguard Cutter I wanted to scope out. I took pictures of some of the various statuary that I saw, not so much that I liked them so much, but because I am trying to make an active effort to document my experiences since I'm actually beginning to range farther than the home-grounds. Walked along the lake for a while, visited a veteran's memorial, came back around to the hotel, because by this point I had ranged in a big loop along the shore swinging out to each side of the hotel. Met up with the motherboard again and we went to the irish pub across the street. I ordered Guiness and Fish and Chips... but they were out of Guiness, and only served pizza (wtf!!!?). Instead I had a dark stout. Still seeking fish and chips we were going to another pub, determined it was either closed or really fucking far away, so we went for shitty chinese food. Kind of a shame. On the way out, I discovered that much like my native Saint Paul this joint shuts down at ~ seven pm (wtf!!!? again). It's bizarre, since Minneapolis, my other native city tends to be in operation until the wee morning hours. As a kid I assumed all "big cities" (big enough to have SKY SCRAPERS!!!!) were like that. After chinese we came back, the motherboard, as thoroughly rude as ever, began speculating on whether a particular gentlemen ahead of us was homeless or not. Next: room service dessert. After: lazing around. Tomorrow: Gooseberry Falls, and Split Rock Lighthouse.

UPDATE: Now I'm prolonging a fight on youtube.
Do I still count as a bad person if I know it's a farce?
Does it make me worse for deriving glee from provoking the one who is taking it serious?

Questions questions (which are rhetorical, I might add. No one is allowed to answer :P ).

A night to be proud of, certainly. *choke*

I'm not asleep, so here I am fucking around on LJ alternately looking at people's userinfo, and reloading my friends page in the faint hope that someone updated. What the hell am I doing? I have a ton of reading, writing, no 'rithmatic, but it wouldn't hurt, and even some art to do. Am I doing it? No. I'm wasting time on Livejournal.

Halted a friendship? Not quite.
Lost a ton of respect for? Yes.

Is there any issue I would? No. There would have been quite a few five years ago, but I'm more chilled out (or is it more edified?) now. Contrary opinions are just chances to possibly learn something. The people that seek to sanitize the input they receive are contemptible in their shortsightedness. "Go watch some pundits, fool."

This isn't really relevant, but I'd like to see about half of the posters whose answers I've read so far executed.

Not on the basis of their answers, so much as how those answers have been delivered. I think reading comprehension must be a problem here.
What do you think of that, Intel, Sponsors Of Tomorrow? Instead of sponsoring an inane question to appear on a blog site, perhaps it would have been better to put those resources, comparatively paltry as they may have been, directly into sponsoring some education [for instance].

I would also like to submit for edification the assertions that ad hominem attacks over differences of ideas is shamelessly masturbatory, and made even more pathetic and loathsome by the vicarious nature of the internet; and that superficiality is intrinsically misguided - not to mention perhaps even more masturbatory.



You know, we could even eat the executions, or feed them to animals that we may want to eat, or release the bodies to physiological and/or nutritional studies. Not only is our future brightly improved by the removal of those individuals, but removing them in one or more of those ways could potentially improve the way we eat.

Failing that, in the far future we could all be genetically altered to have tentacles like an octopus and beaks like a macaw. This would give us a few more (highly versatile!) appendages, and strong beaks to crack hard nuts for the tender flesh inside.

keys and mice work find for me. touch screens are for technophobes that like to clean up skin-oils.